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Tuesday, November 8th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:20 pm. |
| Mood: |  hungry. | | Music: | The Cure - Homesick.. |
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So I got pretty good reviews overall from the RA Evaluation survey. There are a couple of residents who seem to be bitter, but from their responses, it seems like those are the ones I've had to document.
One of my residents even wrote in response to 'What does your RA do well?" : Does not tolerate alcohol.
Half of my floor thinks I come down too hard on them for policy violations, and the other half want quiet hours more strictly enforced.
You can never make everyone happy. I feel like a politician. Haha.
I caused a male sea urchin to release his sperm today.
I know. It's becuase I'm sexy.
I injected him with some potassium chloride (which is the sea urchin equivalent of Viagra) and then shook him for a few minutes (which obviously is a turn-on for sea urchins).
And then he spawned.
My friend Wendy got to pull the head off of a live fruit fly larvae. Yes, you read correctly. Pull.
This is the reason why I love biology.
I also had the best meal tonight that I've had in months since living here at FT. Miso soup with seaweed, CA rolls with wasabi, chicken fajitas with guacamole, black olives, and beans, and steamed zucchini.
Unfortunately, I had no room left to try the rice with cilanto and lime, or the full sundae bar that everyone was hitting up. But I'm sure I would have loved it.
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shot through the heart: you give love a bad name..
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Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
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| Time: | 5:19 am. |
| Mood: |  awake. |
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I haven't posted on this in a really long time.
Things have changed to a degree that I don't want to try to recap.
I was reading two sentences I had written in my journal almost two years ago :
"I'm 18, and I've wanted to fall in love and be loved in return ever since I was 8. I've been waiting for a decade now, and it hurts -- when is life going to give me that chance?"
Wow. I can't believe how intense those two sentences are, when you read them over. Especially now since I've found my happiness. I can really see how hurt and wanting I used to be, reading that.
I'll tell you that at this moment in time, life is wonderful. And the person who is responsible for making me feel this way...is my wonderful boyfriend.
I am in love.
Ha, but while I am very happy, I wanted to post some things that bugging me right now :
1. I can't bring myself to finish my physics homework, and it's only three problems.
2. I haven't gone to most of my classes in awhile.
3. I've been sick for about three weeks.
4. My left shoulder hurts.
5. I need to raise my grades. NEED.
6. I'm not interested in any of my classes...and am seriously wondering about changing my major.
7. My pass time for winter quarter is tomorrow, and I haven't had any time to think about my classes or plan out my schedule.
8. I miss my boyfriend...
9. It's 5:27 am and I don't know why I can't just do my homework so I can go to sleep.
10. I've eaten pretty much all the food in my room.
11. I really miss playing the piano.
12. And I really miss talking to my true friends.
Hmm. A longer, more reflective entry to come later.
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shot through the heart: 4 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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| Time: | 11:44 pm. |
| Mood: |  tired. | | Music: | Kelly Clarkson - Since You've Been Gone. |
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Your Linguistic Profile:
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65% General American English |
20% Yankee |
10% Dixie |
5% Upper Midwestern |
0% Midwestern |
HAHAHA, what the fuck?
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shot through the heart: 2 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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| Time: | 10:47 pm. |
| Mood: |  worried. | | Music: | The Dandy Warhols - Not If You Were The Last Junkie On Earth. |
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I had a small panic attack two minutes ago.
I can't do this paper.
I can't start it.
I've been doing research for days, literally, days...but I just can't bring myself to do it. Becuase I know what I want to say, but I just can't...say it.
And I'm supposed to bring in a rough draft for my TA to read tomorrow.
Oh god.
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shot through the heart: 3 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
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| Time: | 4:20 pm. |
| Mood: |  working. | | Music: | Limp Bizkit - My Way.. |
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So, spring quarter 2005 has started, and I have thrown myself headfirst into my studies.
I started studying and doing homework for my classes on the first day.
I don't think I'm ahead yet. But I do think I'm at a healthy point for the third day of school.
Expect Patsy to be less and less contactable as college takes over my youthful life.
How is everyone else?
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shot through the heart: 3 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Saturday, March 12th, 2005
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| Time: | 6:37 pm. |
| Mood: |  content. | | Music: | Till I Hear From You - Gin Blossoms.. |
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So...double majoring in Biopsychology and Film Studies, with a minor in Music and possibly, Spanish.
I think it's going to happen.
And don't anyone dare say a word against it.
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shot through the heart: 2 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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| Time: | 3:18 pm. |
| Mood: | amused. | | Music: | Josie and the Pussycats - Three Small Words.. |
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You are Deb and you could drink whole milk if you
wanted.
Which Napoleon Dynamite character are you?
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Other possible results on this quiz included a liger and tater tots. That's great.
"I wish you'd get out of my life and shut up!"
I had to write a 7-page paper on Napoleon Dynamite last week for my film class. It was awesome.
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shot through the heart: 5 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Monday, February 14th, 2005
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Instructions : Take the first sentence of the first post of each month, and the last sentence of the last post of each month, and combine in chronological order to create your own review of 2004.
Here goes.
January : Like the title says, Happy Freakin' New Years to anyone/everyone/you! I can't believe it's 2004...and I think I caught something yesterday. De tells me to eat ramen. I'm thinking about getting up to make some. LOL.
February : (Surprisingly enough, I didn't post anything at all in this short month!)
March : "I'm not dead yet!"...so reads Ben Davis' headline on his myspace profile. March 8th. The re-debut of Patsy's journal. Woot. My brain hurts. I just finished practicing the piano and apparently I cannot learn the rest of my Etude. Just because I'm too slow to coordinate both of my hands to play something audible.
=(
Grr.
I'm tired and fuming. The end.
April : Save me. I'm drowning. free me, before i slip away. heal me, wake me from this day. can somebody help me? This is the price you pay for loss of control. Two words : Santa Barbara. It's a done deal.
May : Very quick update right now. It's 12:08 am and I need to go to sleep. I wake up in 5 hours to go take the AP Calculus BC exam. Wish me luck! =) "i don't know if i believe that things happen for the best...i believe...that things happen...becuase they do, because it's the right place, at the right time, for them to happen...why do things happen? why did this happen? i don't know. it just did, that's all. it happened becuase...it happened." Next picture post : Prom. aka Plastic Day.
June : (...started out with a song lyric)
how long i'll wait just to say goodbye
can't do this anymore
won't feel you anymore
leave it all, the fights and all
summer's getting colder
drive all night to hold you tight
back to california
days went by, we waited, and i guess we're getting older
we couldn't win in the end...you're gone.
It's one thing to say something over and over in your head, and another to say it out loud for someone else to hear. It is the ultimate admission of truth. Some people can't just let bygones be bygones. Here's to resurrecting the past in a negative way. Shut your mouth, choke on your food, and die.
July : (also started out with a song lyric)
I kinda always knew I'd end up your ex-girlfriend
Eh. Don't you hate when things are too good to be true, and all along, you were hoping that this time around was going to be different, but it wasn't?
I do.
You feel like you've just fallen flat on your face. Okay, so apparently education and work experience counts for nothing anymore. I lost my job today. Apparently, I was let go becuase the store owner felt that I was too young for the job. I was told to come back in a few years. Whatever. To be quite honest, I'll be surprised if anyone even pays attention to this entry.
August : My livejournal needs another update. So I finally got another job, working as a cashier at Yoshinoya Beef Bowl Restaurants. Yup, I'm one of those people that goes, "Hi, welcome to [/insert restaurant here]. Can I take your order?" Haha, yes, laugh if you must, but it's paying for my college and my car, so I really don't mind that much. A side note to everyone : In your relationships with your significant other, please don't take the easy way out. Respect the person enough to make the effort to work things out, or reach a fair parting. It really disgusts me when people only go for the immediate, cheap thrill and never put any thought into what you're doing and how it may hurt the person. That kinda stuff really shows what kind of a person you really are. It's potent enough to negate everything else good you have done beforehand. Besides this...
Fact of Life #1 : Men use the women's restroom when nobody's looking. Women's restrooms are always cleaner. I know becuase I clean them.
Fact of Life #2 : A penis is emotionless; a vagina is not. This is a very general statement that should be taken lightly, thank you.
More facts of life to come as they are discovered.
September : (...this one begins with an anecdote)
A brief moment from work tonight :
Me : Hey, Darwin...Darwin! Come here.
Darwin : What?
[/walks over]
Me : Look, I found you a new girlfriend.
[/cue picture #1 : A pale-skinned redhead]
Darwin : Ehh...
Me : Okay, how about...this one...
[/cue picture #2 : A brunette with medium skin, brown eyes]
Darwin : Oh. Better.
Me : Ha, okay, this one.
[/cue picture #3 : A brunette with medium skin, blue eyes]
Darwin : That's the best one.
Me : Oh yeah? How about blondes? You like blondes?
Darwin : (is quiet)
Me : You like girls with dark hair better, huh?
Darwin : I like girls with no clothes on.
Friday's my last day at this job, and I'm gonna miss it. Two weeks, exactly, until I move up to SB. Holy crap. Public Patsy for Publicity Chair! It's my slogan. Spread it around, yo. Wish me luck. And I'm off to read Tartuffe.
October : Professor Winant on belly button piercings:
Men are going to look at you and go, "Whoa...that's the 'fuck me' look."
He was applauded for that remark by all 525 students in IV Theatre this morning.
I'm 18, and I've wanted to fall in love and be loved in return ever since I was 8. I've been waiting for a decade now, and it hurts -- when is life going to give me that chance?
November : I finally got my nose pierced! I got the stud in my right nostril that I've always wanted, after Mar and I decided we were going to go get piercings done together (she got a vertical labret done, but unfortunately she's thinking about taking hers out becuase she doesn't like its placement).
24: will you pass on this survey? I took it from someone else, so take it if you want it.
December :
Last night
=
Two papers in five hours, fifteen minutes...
and a drama performance this morning.
I went for almost four days without taking a shower.
But I'm clean now.
Suck on that, bitches.
But it's been good friends, good times...just all around a good day.
I'm enjoying life right now.
WOW. That was long, and as you obviously tell, a lot of it I had to cut and paste together in order for it to make sense...but 2004 was one hell of a year. I'm glad that it both started and ended on high notes...the middle of the year was hard, because I got my heart broken. Relationships were created, some ended, and some were destroyed. And September was a turning point in my life...I am a firm believer that you're a different person every day, every minute, every second of your life - you will never be the same again.
But moving to college has seriously altered everything I previously knew. And it's such an amazing feeling.
Call it coincidence if you will, but the song that's playing right now as I'm wrapping up this entry is perfect.
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shot through the heart: 2 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Monday, February 7th, 2005
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| Time: | 3:01 am. |
| Mood: | tired. | | Music: | La La - Ashlee Simpson.. |
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god bless the daylight
the sugary smell of springtime
remembering when you were mine
in a still suburban town
when every thursday, i'd brave those mountain passes
and you'd skip your early classes
and we'd learn how our bodies worked...
--Death Cab for Cutie, "We Looked Like Giants".
So emo. Yet so sensual.
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shot through the heart: 3 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Sunday, January 30th, 2005
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| Time: | 2:36 am. |
| Mood: | studying. | | Music: | The Sneaker Pimps - 6 Underground.. |
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You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.
What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Hooray!
...I miss my friends. =(
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shot through the heart: 1 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Wednesday, January 19th, 2005
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| Time: | 2:54 am. |
| Mood: | tired. | | Music: | The Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Tick.. |
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Blippy visiting us this past 3-day weekend
+ lots of shopping on State Street...lots of new clothes and makeup! Woo, we're such girls.
+ Jack and Coke on Saturday...Inteema was tipsy. "Do you want to fuck me?" HAHAHA.
+ Maury and me getting buzzed last night on more Jack...which led to Inteema and Maury trying to undress me while I was talking to Blippy on the phone. GOOD TIMES!
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= one of the best weekends, ever.
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shot through the heart: 5 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Sunday, January 9th, 2005
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Saturday, January 8th, 2005
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| Time: | 2:21 am. |
| Mood: |  okay. | | Music: | Fall Behind Me - The Donnas. |
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For those of you who haven't heard from me yet, Happy New Years!
My resolution for this year is to find something that I've got a passion in. It seems as if most people already have an idea of what they want to study and do with their life, I've just got too many interests. I was restless for a lot of the winter break.
So, anyone got any suggestions?
I'm back in SB, living like a sicky from all the rain that's been going down here lately. Rain is great, just not when you have to walk through it to Chemistry at 9 am in the morning. It looked like a hurricane hit. Most of my clothes still aren't dry. LOL.
List of bands I have to see before I die :
Social Distortion
AFI
Green Day
Something Corporate
The Donnas
My Chemical Romance
I got my ticket for Social D playing at the Hub on Feb. 7th, yay! I'm excited cuz the show's on campus, so I save money from gas and food, and the Hub is a really small venue (think : chairs and tables stacked out of the way, with a small, 6 inch stage with no guard railing.) I'll never get another chance to be this close to Mike Ness ever again.
I think I'm going to go to sleep now. There's nothing else to do staying in on a Friday night.
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shot through the heart: 7 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
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Finals List :
Chem 1A Lab
Drama
Chem 1A
Sociology
Philosophy
I spent about two hours sitting in this really cramped spot, next to this one stocky boy who took up the areas around his seat up with his elbows, and another who had a puffy jacket on.
My neck is seriously cramped.
But it's been good friends, good times...just all around a good day.
I'm enjoying life right now.
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shot through the heart: 3 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Saturday, December 4th, 2004
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| Time: | 6:58 pm. |
| Mood: | calm. |
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Last night
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Two papers in five hours, fifteen minutes...
and a drama performance this morning.
I went for almost four days without taking a shower.
But I'm clean now.
Suck on that, bitches.
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shot through the heart: 1 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Monday, November 29th, 2004
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| Time: | 9:45 pm. |
| Mood: | lethargic. |
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1: Grab the book nearest to you. turn to page 18, find line 4. write down here what it says: "This establishment reminds me of a lot of places back home." (It's from a play.)
2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. what do you touch first? Air.
3: What is the last thing you watched on TV? Music videos at 5 am.
4: WITHOUT LOOKING, gues what time it is: 9:50 pm.
5: now look at the clock, what is the actual time? 9:43 pm.
6: with the exception of the computer, what can you hear? A car driving past my residence hall.
7: when did you last step outside? what were you doing? 37 minutes ago, I was walking back from play rehearsal.
8: before you came to this website, what did you look at? The computer screen?
9: what are you wearing? Black sweatpants and a blue striped top. And hoop earrings.
10: did you dream last night? Actually, no.
11: when did you last laugh? why? While walking home with Inteema...she was trying to growl like a bear, lol.
12: what is on the walls of the room you are in? Uh, on my side...holiday lights, a Moulin Rouge poster, angel's wings from my Halloween costume, and a bunch of other artwork/clippings/postcards/etc. all collaged on my wall.
13: seen anything weird lately? Seen? Ha, I heard two people having sex today as I locked my bike in a bike rack. Not exactly weird, but you know.
14: what do you think of this quiz? Meh. I'm just wasting time.
15: what is the last film you saw? THE INCREDIBLES! *teehee*
16: if you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first? My college education.
17: tell me something about you that most people don't know: I know how to belly dance.
18: if you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do? The way we are carrying on in Iraq has to change. Also, something has to be done about our country's leadership - I hate the conservative course it's on.
19: do you like to dance? Yes! if I have energy to.
20: George Bush: I voted for John Kerry. The fucking end.
21: imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her? Augustine. Or Marie.
22: imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him? Timothy.
23: would you ever consider living abroad? Hm. Possibly, but probably not for more than a year.
24: will you pass on this survey? I took it from someone else, so take it if you want it.
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shot through the heart: 1 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Monday, November 22nd, 2004
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Jim Adkins of Jimmy Eat World has mad guitar skills. His guitar part in "pain" is just amazing to watch.
That's hot.
takes my pain away
it's a lie, a kiss with open eyes
and she's not breathing back
anything but bother me
it takes my pain away
nevermind, these are hurried times
oh, oh, oh
i can't let it bother me
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shot through the heart: 2 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Friday, November 19th, 2004
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So I ended up getting a 90 on my drama midterm!...
...and I was able to do all the problems on my Chem 1A exam yesterday; save for the fact that I have have messed up on one since I forgot that products are divided by reactants in calculating concentration. Hopefully I'll get partial credit on it or something.
I bought an ivy plant for the room today! Inteema and I named it Poison Ivy.
Tomorrow is me going down to LA to hang out with Blippy and Alicia. I miss mah BBJ clan. ♥
I got to jump on the piano down in the lounge and play some pieces today! I haven't touched the piano in like, a month...thank goodness I didn't forget my pieces, my fingers are just stiff.
My computer crashed tonight while I was looking for 18+ nightclubs in LA. Scary. And I got sick from eating DLG food. Blech.
( And just so this isn't just a text-only entry... )
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shot through the heart: 11 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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Wednesday, November 10th, 2004
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| Time: | 2:22 am. |
| Mood: | working. | | Music: | The Yeah Yeah Yeahs - Rich.. |
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Excerpt from my philosophy paper on the conceivability argument :
"The principle of Cartesian Dualism states that any thinking being possesses an immaterial soul that is separate from its body. Descartes uses this belief to present his own argument for dualism, called the conceivability argument, which consists of 5 parts :
One, Descartes states that if it is possible to conceive of some state of affairs without contradiction, then that state of affairs is possible. Quite simply put, Descartes thought that if he could conceive of it, it was possible because God could bring it about. For example, if I can conceive of someone in Japan who is singing “Tainted Love” at exactly the same time as I am, it is possible - that person is halfway around the world therefore I could not disprove it; also, they may decide that they want to hear the song at the same time I do."
Haha, Japan. That's so random.
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shot through the heart: 2 to blame - you give love a bad name..
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